The Party’s Over, It’s Time to Call It a Day… One year ends.
A new year begins.
The New Year is a special gateway, I believe. It’s a
magical, mystical time for me. Maybe that’s what made me take that Internet
quiz, “How Old is Your Soul?” What is on the horizon? What magic awaits? What
challenges will I confront? This year will be like no other ever has been.
What’s not to like about that?
The notion of old souls pulls at me. Since I believe in
reincarnation, the idea that one comes back and back to resolve issues with
individuals or character traits appeals. I get another shot (or six) at trying
to improve myself. One gets to be an old soul, not by returning so much, but by
working out those issues so that each lifetime has fewer areas in need of resolution.
When someone labels me an old soul, it’s supposed to be a
compliment. A recognition that I am higher-evolved than many of their
acquaintance. That I have learned many of life’s lessons.
The fact that I am again corporeal, am living another life
after having lived many others, is evidence that I haven’t learned all I need
to know to be the highest evolved. I am here to work out character flaws that
keep me from the highest level. I know that two of mine are my judgmental
nature that is directly tied to how difficult it is for me to forgive
grievances.
Knowing that about myself is better than not knowing, but I
fear I will leave this existence still
bearing the onus of those flaws. (See
how judgmental I am?) I think I am still a toddler (in developmental terms) in
mastering those two areas. Sigh. I think it will take me a few more lifetimes
to figure out how to let go of them.
So much as I like the label of old soul, I have to say it
bugs me to be so labeled. The implication is the one telling you that is an old
soul, too, recognizing a comrade. It takes one to know one? Is that hubris or
what?
While I do feel I have an awareness of what I need to work
on, I don’t feel like an old soul so much as a mature adult who assesses what
lies ahead and sets about to do it. I know, because I am actually old, that my
soul will not accomplish its tasks in this body. I am too far from achieving
the goal and seem unable to make myself do what I know needs to be done.
Sigh. I’ll be back! See you next life.
Yes, it is good not to be judgmental. And it seems the last person on the planet I give a break to in that regard is myself. We can work on that one together in the new year.
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That's a goal! And you are such a good role model, Sandy. Thanks for the supportive comment.
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